Getting out there

Lately I’ve been feeling a little soft around the edges.  Blame it on the holidays, or all the good shows on TV, I don’t know.  It takes its toll every morning, to step on the scale and not see what I want, or have my clothes not drape nicely when I put them on.  I decided to try and do something about it, after realizing that I do not have willpower to avoid sugary treats, second helpings of buttery squash, or a splash of creamer in my coffee. 

I started changing clothes after the evening dishes are done, and I force myself to go out in the dark and walk three times a week.  Decker intuitively knows what is coming; he is always waiting at the door for me to come out.  Maybe it is the different vibrations he can sense when I put that certain pair of shoes on, or maybe his ears perk up from outside when he hears me mumble the word “walk.”  He always goes and I’d like to think that at the end of the leash he is reflecting on his good fortune.  Wag Wag! After a few minutes I feel like I have enough energy to jog a little, and before I know it I am at my “turning around spot” where all the yard lights end and it becomes a little scarier. 

It isn’t like it comes naturally; this going outside in the wind and cold and shadowy night, and jogging especially is something I will never be good at.  It just makes me feel like my heart rate is up for the right reasons, and maybe my clothes are not fitting any better, but the slight soreness I occasionally feel encourages me to think something is happening.  One emotional evening something that seemed small and insignificant happened, but the more I thought about it, the more it became something I wanted to write about.  And so I submitted it to mamalodemagazine.  And they published it today, which is so pleasing and scary at the same time.  My name and blog are out there for the world to see, and I think I will be smiling all day and into the night, when I go out again for some fresh air.
Please check it out and share it and leave a comment, and thank you mamalode for putting it on your amazing website!